Thursday, September 27, 2007

Wow, has it already been 6 months?

Hi everybody,
Today is a very special day, because six months ago today I walked out of a prison of mans making and into a life. Wow, that is hard to believe! :)
What have I done in six months? You may ask.
Well I have a great job and wonderful friends. I have a absolutely spectacular family whom I love a great deal. Even the ones that I have not heard from in years. Especially them. I have a car, and it has been getting a lot of mileage. I have played in the waves of the ocean, and I have sat outside in the dark and watched the panorama of stars over my head. I have met a lot of great people, who have opened their hearts up to me. But most of all I am not in any prison of any ones making not mans nor my own. What do the next six months hold for me? Only God knows!
All I can say is it will not be boring!!! :)

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

A Little Reality Goes A Long Way!

I went to the beach for my birthday, and I saw an amazing sight. The Ocean. Now to some of you this is old news you might be saying to yourself "big deal so you saw the ocean". Fine that is your opinion. but before you write if off. Ask your self two questions. One: what if there were no ocean, and two: what if you could not see it, hear it, or be able to play in it?

I want to tell you a story of a woman who lost her way.

Once upon a time there was this woman, who hated herself, she would wake up each and every morning and say to herself perhaps today I will die, or perhaps today I will kill myself. All day long this woman would be angry, she would be angry at her job, she would be angry when she took a shower, she would even be angry when she ate a meal! Before she went to bed each and every night she would ask God to kill her so she would not have to wake up and face another angry day.
This woman was truly lost, and yes she was me.
I took all that anger and went and committed murder. I hurt people who loved me despite myself, and I scared those very same people.
Because of my act of anger I was put in prison for 14 years, and in those 14 years I found someone who truly loved me, and accepted me for who I am and did not ask any more from me than I could give.
That person was me!!
My anger slowly diminished until it was no more, but that was not enough because those people that I hurt became angry with me. They stopped writing me, and decided to teach me a lesson. While I was locked up the one thing I truly wanted to do was go to the ocean and witness how wild and free it was. I stood looking at it for a long time and it was while I was watching the waves pound into the sand and then rush back that I realized; no matter the provication, anger will make you waste more time than anything in your life. If you spend all your life being angry at someone than you are in a prison of your own making.
Nobody has to put you behind bars becuase baby you put yourself there and you might as well say goodbye to the OCEAN!!!!
The one you hurt the most is the one you look into the mirror at each and every day!!!