Addictions

There are all sorts of addictions in life. Alcohol, drugs, caffeine, cigarettes, food, pills, and sex just to name a few. However there also is an unknown addiction. This addiction is just as deadly as any of the above, but we do not recognize it. We have quaint sayings for this addiction like: trouble follows him or her wherever they go, or if it was not for bad luck he or she would have no luck. Still not sure what I am talking about? Let me spell it out for you! CHAOS!!
If you are a survivor then you know what I am talking about. Has this ever happened to you?
You have just weathered through yet another emotional storm or crisis or issue, that seems to be your life, and everything is going smoothly and yet you have a feeling of impending doom. What do you do, well somehow,(not your fault really) you seem to fall into another crisis, and you feel as if things are now in balance. You are at your element after all you have faced many crisis and come out all right so far.
Well sisters and brothers I am here to tell you that somehow you have become addicted to CHAOS, and you need intervention. Unfortunately there is no AA, NA, or Weight Watchers for this addiction. You have to take a good hard look into yourself and ask what need does this addiction fill. Are you constantly getting reassurance that you are going to be okay? Do the troops rally around you when a crisis erupts. Do people around you, who usually ignore you all of a sudden start paying attention to every thing you say or do?
You need help. You need to try to find something else to fulfill those needs. And no not drugs, alcohol, food or sex!!
It is going to be very hard at first, and you may slip back into the addiction every once in a while, but you can do it.
How do I know about the CHAOS addiction? It was my addiction for so long, and if I can recognize it and try to do something to change it then so can you. Of course the fist step is admitting that this addiction exists in your life, and then although it will be hard, and you will surely miss it. You can start to change the behaviors that feed this addiction.
Good luck it is not easy, but it is very rewarding!!! :)